S.O.S.

I have a history of when things get tough, climbing into my shell and trying to deal (or control) whats going on in my life. This has been my so called strenght, not bothering friends who have enough on their plates and of course I didn't want to be seen as weak, not being able to cope..... this led to major problems emotionally for me but I have been working on it with loads of help!

Yesterday and for the first time in my life I sent out a distress signal to my friends, just letting them know that I wasn't the best, that I was feeling alone and needed comfort. I was taking a gamble that they might not return my S.O.S. and I would feel even more alone but I needed to do this.

I still can't believe it, the text's, emails and calls from near and far. My Friends telling me they love me, that they are thinking of me. They listened to me, and how I was feeling, they let me cry without hushing me. We talked about themselves too and things going on in our lives... I heard myself laugh about something funny, it was like a revelation! Even in the pain I was in, I could still laugh, and I will laugh again. I have to go through this pain, experience it, but it will subside and I will laugh again.

Yes I am weak, yes I cry, yes I feel like crap, YES I am HUMAN!

One's friends are that part of the human race with which one can be human.

~George Santayana

Thank you all!

Eva x